Eating the Elephant

So it's day 1 of this thing... whatever it actually turns out to be... a blog, a diary, hopefully a chronicle of my self-improvement. Right now, there's a lot that needs improving.

I don't even really know where to start...But while I was randomly watching the Rachel Ray Show today, I serendipitously heard something that seems really applicable to my current situation. Oprah's "Clutter Guru" Peter Walsh stated that "the best way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time".

So I guess the only way to eat this elephant is to eat this elephant! Do something, anything and keep doing it until my life is turned around.

So what's my proverbial elephant? Depression, social anxiety, and chronic disorganization are at the top of list... Also on the list is a healthy dose of perfectionism, a little bit of OCD, and a codependent relationship with my alcoholic mother. Yikes!

I have to do something, anything to get a grip on this, or at least try to be at peace with some of the things that I can't change.

So step #1: Get on a really good anti-depressant medication of last resort. I just started Nardil, 45mg, yesterday. I will definitely be writing more on this later. Too soon tell any effect besides a slightly dry mouth... yuck.

Oh, another thing on my elephant list is procrastination... (which is most likely a trait that can only be enhanced by having a blog!) So in the spirit of doing something, anything to overcome/be at peace with my elephant, step #2 is that I'm ending this entry now...